Sunday, July 04, 2010
How delighted I am to share with you that Cindy Adkins asked me to be a guest artist at her blog, I Owe it All to Him.
It's funny how things happen; when Cindy stopped by to invite me over for a look at her blog and asked if I would like to be a guest artist...I had earlier in the day ran into an old friend who began asking me about where my kids are now and how they're all doing.
I related to her that three of our sons were all recently in Iraq together, one has since come home, and soon our daughter will deploy to another country. I also noted to my friend that we had a daughter-in-law in Iraq years ago and another daughter-in-law is now in the army.
She went on to ask me, "How do you deal with all the deployments and having your children in a war zone? How do you stay sane?" I said, "You know, this is our 7th deployment through Iraq. We've had children in Iraq since shortly after 9/11 and have had very little breaks in between the deployments." I went on to say, "But you know, "I Owe it All to Him," I say hundreds of tiny prayers every single day." My friend thought I was kidding and I told her again that I actually had to teach myself to fully Trust in God and allow Him to lead me through each and every deployment...and in doing this I learned to pray constantly.
The truth is, I would not have made it through that very first deployment if I hadn't learned that I could actually fully Trust in the Lord to see me through and Trust that He would keep a watchful eye over them. The first 6 months, I cried every night and rarely slept without feeling terrified for our son that was there. My retired military husband tried to give me some comfort, but I was too unwilling to let go of my fear and worry. I kept the news on 24/7 and when fear kept me awake, I watched the news and kept vigil over every single word and news flash. Finally, I had a breaking point and in a heart wrenching moment of sobbing; I heard the words, "You have to Trust in Me!"
It was that point that I prayed and turned it all over to God and I have done this since that time. There are hundreds of little prayers that cross my lips throughout each and every day. In this I have found hundreds of wonderful little blessings each day; in a simple yet complex flower growing through a crack in the side walk, the little bird that sings in the tall firs, the rain drop on the window that catches a sun ray and sparkles like a rainbow againt the wall...and of course family blessings that I am thankful for many times over.
So the funny thing was that I had early told my friend, "I Owe it All to Him," and then to hear from Cindy...it just seemed to come full circle and for this I am dearly greatful.
Thank you Cindy for including me in your beautifully written words and for using one of my baskets as part of the writing. This was all such a delight and all a wonderful blessing.